Sometimes there are no words to say –
Sometimes all you have is this feeling in your heart, overflowing, and you just give that to God. You hand it to him, confused and full of pain, and all you can utter is “AMEN”…
I was driving down the road – and that was all I had to offer. My mom was taken to the ER by ambulance. She was just sitting at work last I knew, and next thing I know my Dad was on the other end of the phone telling me she’s not good. I could hear it in his voice, he was scared. What happened? When did life go so wrong? I had nothing. And beyond that, nothing to offer up. What did I have to tell the God of the Universe anyway? Nothing He was not already keenly aware of, of that I was absolutely certain.
So I got out of the way.
I let my childlike prayer take over. It used to be how I communicated as a child ~ and you know what, it is still the best way to talk to God as an adult, I have found. If you have never tried it – it goes like this-
A….men, A..men, Amen , amen, amen…. (sung) A childhood, bible school song of my youth…
When Life goes wrong, and all seems hopeless…
A….men, A..men, Amen , amen, amen….
When all is right and beautiful and perfect…
A….men, A..men, Amen , amen, amen….
When you pass an accident and you have no idea who or what happened, but you know God does, just let your heart sing out…
A….men, A..men, Amen , amen, amen….
When you see a mother struggle in the grocery store with her willful children, don’t judge, just lift her to God…
A….men, A..men, Amen , amen, amen….
When you see the angry punk pull up his big car, nearly laying down driving, right next to you, music blaring so loud you FEEL it, don’t judge, he’s God’s baby boy…so sing it out…
A….men, A..men, Amen , amen, amen….
When you remember the silly thing your son said today, or the way your daughter hugged you as though she was not growing into a young woman right before your eyes….
A….men, A..men, Amen , amen, amen….
When you see a freshly opened flower – sing it to HIM who made it…
A….men, A..men, Amen , amen, amen….
When you are praising His blessed and Holy Name,
When you are struggling and there are no words,
When you are scared,
Alone,
Terrified,
Weary,
Exhausted,
Refreshed,
Amazed…
Sing it to HIM who knows the words, Who doesn’t need any. Sing Him the anthem of all he deserves to hear from us, but we could never express… in just a simple- single word.
A….men, A..men, Amen , amen, amen….
He does not need our chatter – he needs our attention. He needs to know we SEE and we KNOW HE is everything, the author and perfector. He is all that is good and He alone is our strength, hope, and lover of our soul. Above all, He ALONE can make every wrong right. But more than that – He can and He will!
Prayer comes naturally when we get out of the way. He wants to hear our heart, and the heart’s song is not sung with earthly words. Sing of His goodness with gentle Amen’s, His praises with hearty voices and then give it ALL up to Him with exuberant and loud shouts of AMEN!
Amen is not an ending to a prayer. IT IS A PRAYER.
Amen!!!
(Journal entry 5 yrs ago…March 28 2006… and no less true)